[He doesn't sound nearly as bothered by that or as scared as he should be, and it's not the alcohol doing that. He isn't careless. In most cases, he's pretty careful and he keeps to himself. He spent much of his life in the safety of his room or his office. He didn't take many risks. And as a result, he'd lived a lonely, quiet life.
One that had nearly come to a miserable and depressing end before the portal had brought him to this city.
Being so close to death had given him some new perspectives, some new fears, and more than a few issues of trust. But it had also given him a bit of a realization that death was inevitable. It was going to catch up to him, eventually. It had tried twice now, and both times had left him scarred in different ways.]
I'm not as trusting a fool as you might think, Axel. I knew the risks, and I understand at least somewhat the dangers. I weighed them, and decided it was worth it.
My first week here I let fear keep me sleeping on a chair outside the building, and I avoided taking a job, or exploring the city. But I lived a life second guessing myself and letting fear keep me from doing things already.
If this is my second chance, I don't want to live my life that way again. Taking risks can leave you scarred and beaten, but never taking any?
It just leaves everything empty.
So it's not that I don't think I or anyone else should not be afraid or worried about what we don't understand. I just think trying to understand is more important.
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[He doesn't sound nearly as bothered by that or as scared as he should be, and it's not the alcohol doing that. He isn't careless. In most cases, he's pretty careful and he keeps to himself. He spent much of his life in the safety of his room or his office. He didn't take many risks. And as a result, he'd lived a lonely, quiet life.
One that had nearly come to a miserable and depressing end before the portal had brought him to this city.
Being so close to death had given him some new perspectives, some new fears, and more than a few issues of trust. But it had also given him a bit of a realization that death was inevitable. It was going to catch up to him, eventually. It had tried twice now, and both times had left him scarred in different ways.]
I'm not as trusting a fool as you might think, Axel. I knew the risks, and I understand at least somewhat the dangers. I weighed them, and decided it was worth it.
My first week here I let fear keep me sleeping on a chair outside the building, and I avoided taking a job, or exploring the city. But I lived a life second guessing myself and letting fear keep me from doing things already.
If this is my second chance, I don't want to live my life that way again. Taking risks can leave you scarred and beaten, but never taking any?
It just leaves everything empty.
So it's not that I don't think I or anyone else should not be afraid or worried about what we don't understand. I just think trying to understand is more important.